Being Barbie

I am about to sound very shallow but I dont give an effff. I like to look pretty all the time. This means if I have to be late for school so I can get my eyelashes to be perfectly curled and mascarad then I will be late without a doubt. Being a "Barbie" is my favorite though. This is when you don't exactly dress like the Barbie Doll that we all played with growing up but more like perfectly girly. Wearing lots of pink and short skirts is the key for dressing. Blonder hair and baby pink lips are important too. Tanning is a no brainer. We all know there are no pasty barbies out there. I like dressing up my friends to look precious too. Today during lunch I convinced my friend into giving her the signature "barbie lips". To achieve this look you have to start by putting cover up on your lips so they are completely nude, then you go over them with pale pink to make them more noticable, then you put gloss over them to make your lips extra shiney. My friend Megan always makes so much fun of me. She calls barbie lips my "powdered donut lips". The fact is, I know I am ridiculous but I dont care. It makes me happy and I like how I present myself. It shows that I care. My friend Erica is the queen of the Barbie look. She has bleach blonde hair, an orange tan, wears pink bows in her hair, and hads the nuddest make-up. She looks like an exact Barbie replica. I am not a big fan of this look because it is wayyy too fake. My friend Annely is reading my blog and she says I am really concited. Im not..I just think this is something I can write a lot about (she was joking by the way). I think all of this is just me striving to be perfect. I can't get great grades, I am lazy, and often in a bad mood..but at least I can say that I care about my apperance unlike a lot of people now a days. The whole point for me is so I can be happy. The better I look the happier I am. This is a fact of life! I mean really, who doesnt get mad when recieving compliments? People don't need happy pills they need a good closet full of clothes and the make-up basics! I think I am trying to make up for lost time from when I was younger. When I was little I was an ugly duckling. I was super awkward and didn't know where I belonged or how I was supposed to act. I had glasses, a gap between my front teeth, braces, and no sense of what looked good. Now that I have it figured out I just want to flaunt my confidence! Now where is my Ken...

There Are So Many Different Personalities In The World!

Sitting at my lunch table I can't help but notice how different everyone is. From the way they look, to the things they talk about, to the way they talk about them. Why did God chose to give that specific person that specific personality and look? (That sentence is for you who actually believe in God). Why do pretty girls almost always have a bad attitude? I wonder if they were born like that or if society changed them into monsters. Personaly I blame society. That is until you actually get to be close with a person. I think if you grew up with a person, that is the only way you know there true personality and who they truley are. The friends I have that i've lnown for a long time all have opposite personalitys. For example, Annely is the whitest Mexican I know. Shes really spastic, dramatic, and happy all the time. My favorite thing about her is that she is racist...against Mexicans. Then theres Sydni, she has everything in the world but will never be happy. She could be a great girl but her parents divorce ruined her and made her super spoiled, i mean shes gorgeous, has a brialliant sense of humor, and makes everyone laugh because she is an easy target (like if you touch her neck she will instantly have a panic attack and make wierd noises and it takes her ten times longer to do everthing like take a shower or finish a story. I wish I could control my personality to make myself into the perfect person! Or at least someone that makes me and everyone else happier. I want to take all my favorite personalities out of my friends and shove them into someone else and make a super friend! Maybe there is someone out there like that in Liverpool or Rome. No one understands this girl or she is just normal to everyone else but to me she would be the perfect friend. I always think about crazy stuff like this. What if there is a person out there that could pass as my twin? What if someone has the same personality as me?
             There are so many people who I like to make up personalities for too. If I do not know them that well but I see them and hear them talk often, I like to think that I know all about them. For example, (please dont get mad Ms. Johnson I swear I mean this in a positive way!) I secretly think my English teacher smokes pot. She is very smart and sees thing in a completly different light then I would ever see it. Not to mention she is very relaxed and not like the normal teacher. I feel like since her personality is the way it is, she must be a certain way. I'm also like this with my friend Allexa. She has so many friends at school but she never talks about her home life, ever. So you would think that she just hangs out with all her different friends all the time but i secretly thinks she sits at home watching movies and goes on family trips alot! Personalities are so decieving! I love how everone is so different.

The Perfect Dress?

I want to be stunning for homecoming this year. All the years before I have had tennis tournaments that give me fifteen minutes to get ready for the secong biggest highschool dance. My hair always ends up looking like POOP. Not this year though, nope, not happening. I scheduled a hair and makeup appointment already, i'm going all out! My date is a cutie named Jose so we are sure to look sexy. One problem, the dress I ordered doesn't fit. I found a simple yet different dress online that I love. It was pretty expensive (compared to my twenty dollar Homecoming dresses in the past) but as soon as my mom saw it, she agreed it had to be bought. I ordered the dress and about a week and a half later the Fed-Ex man dropped it off. So excited, I went straight to my room and put it on. OMG. I could have flexed and busted out of that dress. Everything was great, except the booty was designed for a model with no butt. Seriously, I am no model. Me and my mother sent it back and ordered the next bigger size. It came in another week later. Of course, it is too big. Whatever, I am just going to have someone else fix it. This will not bring me down though. SENIOR YEAR HOMECOMING LET'S GO!!!!

I Think I Am Going Crazy.

In the past month I have been worrying myself. It's not that I have done bad things, just things that aren't like the old me. For one, I have been nicer. This is a big deal to me because I have always had a short fuse. Talking back is my specialty. I have also heard I am remembered as the "hot bitch" to people who dont know me personally at school. That is my identifier. I can't control that I have a serious personality and a straight face all the time. I think I got this from my dad. I love him but he is the most strict, neat freak, not-so-nice man I know. Back to my recent change. With all this niceness came wierdness. I listen to the same song, "Motivation" by Kelly Rowland over and over again. No other songs. I talk to my friend Megan in my sleep when she spends the night. She says I act "possessed". The other night she woke up to find me staring at her. I don't remember doing this because I was totally sleeping! Apparently, I also violently pull the covers over my head and I even punched her in the face once. I do not recall ever being like this. I have also stopped eating as much as I used to. This is wierd becasue eating is my favorite past time. Im also almost scared of going to sleep now because of the ridiculous and sometimes teriffying dreams I have. I haven't been eating late at night or watching scary movies before bed, the dreams just happen. Weather it be negative or positive, i'm not sure, i'm just glad I can recognize something strange is happening to me.